Seismograf

I’ve struggled a lot. Well maybe it doesn’t seem that messy for some people, but it did tear me apart. I lost every positive sights on my mind. But again, I met the universe. I thought I was alone. There was nobody around, and I thought I didn’t need any hand, cos there were problems that only affected me, not anyone else. So there’s no such a business for other to think about it. As I thought that way, universe offered me its arms for a cuddle. That arms really warms me. It did help. There was always a good way from universe to treat each of person in this world, maybe this cruel world. As it gave me a cuddle, there was a whisper that I guess only me could listen. “What happened today will be teacher for you to the next step. It depends on the decision you make, but I'm suggesting you to choose the path to grow with memories on your shoulders, never leave it behind, cos once you need a help to make a decision, to solve your problem, they will help you. I'm sure for t

My life was totally just fine. It was. I spent my three years without any problems blowing around.  Nah , it's okay. It's all good now. Again, the universe was there for me. It wasn't that easy though, but yes, I passed through it! So first, I'm gonna tell you the story how do I know the universe this well. When was our first met, and stuffs. It was me at the age of 16 chilling around with friends of mine. I rarely know boys well, even my friend used to call me 'the one that any guy never ever touch', and still is. It doesn’t matter, not a big deal. Actually,   that's mean, isn't it? Yes but that's me. I spent my whole day normally. Waking up around 5, take a bath, prepare for class, making simple breakfast, and just go to the school. Going back home around 3 or 4 or whenever the teacher allow us to. At the evening, I used to do all the works that the teacher throwed to us that day, or just chilling with my friends, or doing my hobbies such as

Have you ever been in the situation where you hate everything? Even the whole universe seems doesn't allow you to live your life anymore? Wait, stop there. That's rude to think that way, darling. When you think the universe or the whole world are cruel, well, I'm telling you, they aren't. Maybe you are. The world had taught me about decision and acceptance. They gave me a shoulder whenever I had nothing to lean back to. They showed me the stars to guide me through the darkness of my life. Yes they are. You are the cruel one that called them cruel. I'm gonna teach you everything that they had taught me. The first step you have to do is take your breath deeply, arrange and knowing the rhythm, and smile. If you can do those things, easily, then you are ready for the next step. -Sei. Nov,  21 st  2019.