New Lessons

I learned couple new values these day. These are the values that I got. A story time, basically. If you don't mind to read it, please read. I hope you'll get some learning from it!

The first thing is; it's so calming to accept everything that happened in your life, while ofc you keep trying to do the best thing to be happened. 

It was all started when my assignment file suddenly damaged at 11 pm, when I've planned the whole weekend for doing things that I love. I know there must be a solving through it but the first thing I did,.. guess what? cried. of course haha. and I chose to start it all over again cos I had no clear mind to look for something that could recovered my file. which means, I accepted it. it was sooo hard, ofc. to accept the work you've been dealing with the whole day to be gone within second. but there's no way you could bring it back with your madness. so, why should I bother with that? the second thing happened, I broke my phone, again, when it just repaired for not more than a month. I was staring at my phone and laughing to my self. cos why'd I be that dumb to crack my phone for twice within a month. it didn't seem to be a real damage at first, until the next day came. I couldn't turn it on at all. I was so scared to tell my parents, especially my dad. he has got lot of things to think about, some of them about my needs, and there I came with the news I cracked my phone, again. no way, you're gonna be the worse daughter. but I told him haha. can you imagine his expression? and what did I tell him after? 

"it's okay. I can use my dear poor laptop. at least she can be turned on. don't be bother, I'll save money to fix it by myself"

the next day he told me to fix my phone, cos he has been seeing me looking so tired dealing with this laptop. but, I refused, not only because it's not that important, I was too lazy to go out. hehe.

the next thing happened where it was so close to the deadline, but I still couldn't download a software on my laptop. or maybe I don't really understand how it works, but my friend help me with that. shout out to you, if you're reading this now. then I had to deal with opening my assignment file for about 20 minutes, just for opening the file. not even doing a single action. I needed 30 more minutes for only zooming a thing. isn't that crazy? and how did I response it? cried again. ofc. HAHA I am weak. but I don't care. that's how I express my self instead of messing things around. and I calmed my self down to look for a solving. yep, I am brilliant. I borrowed my brother's laptop, downloaded the application there and finished my task during the day. I am so glad that he understood me, how's the condition of my laptop, and he chose to lend his laptop and worked during the night. shout out to him too. he always tried to cheer me up every time I cried over my laptop, over these things, and there were my dad kept telling me things that I should've done while things already happened, so what's the point?

and here I am staring at my laptop writing this story to tell with. cos I only told few of my friends about it, maybe 4 friends that's related to this work. which ofc they need to know. and my beloved best friends that always be there for me to cheer me up. even doing a silly thing to make me laugh. shout out to yall!

the first lesson that I can take from these past days is, just because the universe seems to hate you so much, it doesn't mean that they hate you. it doesn't mean that you have to screw your life that you've been sacrificed the whole time. every thing has learning behind, it depends on how you look at it. you don't have to climb a mountain to stand on top of the world. even the ugliest of places can be beautiful, as long as you take the time to look. and there are bright places even in dark times. and even there isn't, you can be that bright place with infinite capacities.

The next lesson is to appreciate yourself and others.

ok let's start to yourself first. you have been holding on something that's extremely hard, well maybe that isn't the thing you love, you need to appreciate yourself for have been holding that long. you need to appreciate what ever you did, even it's the tiniest thing, it matters. appreciate it.

appreciate others.

I have a story behind. so basically, I cooked for my family these day. I never cooked for the whole family before. I usually cooked for my self or my siblings, well maybe my parents taste a bit of it. but never ever had to cook for their actual meal. so it was my first time. we were fasting, my mom came to the kitchen to clean up her mess she left there when I was dealing with my cook. and there were the time where she asked me what did I make? is that supposed to look that way? and I was scared like, ok mom, actually I don't even know what am I making rn, I've never done it before. I'm afraid it will taste terrible. she answered: "it's okay. it may looks terrible, but I'm sure it will taste good."

and here it came the time we broke our fasting, I tasted it. it did taste good, and I told her, "it tastes good!" she said, "I told ya!" and she grabbed one and tasted it. my whole family seemed like it, even it's just a simple meal but it calmed me. after we finished the dinner, my mom said a suggestion that may gonna make this meal taste better. I was really amazed on how she tried to tell me lesson but in the way where it won't offend me. 

so the learning here is, it's so important for us to appreciate every single things that others did. even it's not really a big deal, cos by doing that, which will not bother your energy by doing that, you'll spread love and happiness because of that. 

So, the point is, be calm, appreciate, and spread love!

I know it may be so hard, I feel that too. but it's never be a sin to try, right? I believe you can. I believe if you do that, we will create such a better better environment. better world, society to live in. 

 ton of loves. x

-sei. 29.04.20.